Hello!
As it is my first Saturday off in a while, I thought I'd catch up on blogging although I should be doing some college work- sigh. Today I thought i'd touch on something relevant to me right now which is the pressures of growing up, in particular relating to education and work.
This time last year, I was told to start thinking about what I wanted to do once I had finished my college course. What?! I was so confused as I had only just started but the year whipped around quickly and now I understand why they said to think about it early. Come September this year I was supposed to know what I wanted to do in order to prepare for it, for example- going to uni meant I would have to be applying right now, the sooner the better.
I was set on not going to university seeing as I never wanted to go to college, with what felt like everyone around me applying to uni, I felt like I had to. I started to look into university courses but my heart wasn't in it, I wanted to please my parents, do them proud, improve my chances and simply just move out. Recently I've came to realise that's not the right attitude to have, so I've decided against even applying.
The only university I wanted to go to I visited, Norland College in Bath to study Early Years and eventually become a qualified Norland Nanny- I loved it there. But realistically it wouldn't agree with my family financially, I don't want to go knowing I will have very little money and probably be so unhappy as a result of this.
Once my decision was set on not going to uni, all I could think about was finding a job or applying to do another college course- one of which I probably wouldn't have enjoyed. I've looked at so many different paths including apprenticeships, a range of childcare related jobs and even a complete change- a makeup course.
I've come to the conclusion that I don't have to have everything worked out, I don't need to do something to please anybody else and I should do everything I want to do. Although I'm still unsure about what I'd like to do, I'm not worried about it- it was stressing me out but now i'm completely calm and think i'll take everything as it comes and do things at my own pace.
There are many different career paths and many different ways to get to where you want to be. I'm trying to remind myself that the key to success is happiness. Do what makes YOU happy and by all means, experiment to find your happiness.
Apologies if this post was all over the place, my blog is a place for me to share my thoughts. Hopefully you can either relate to this or take just something of what I've said on board.
I hope you're all well!
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Hello!
So I've got some times on my hands this week so i'm going to spend it chilling out while getting things done. That may sound a little strange but basically i'm going to be relaxing in my comfy clothes while working on the laptop. I say the laptop as this isn't strictly mine, I've been sharing with my sister as unfortunately mine died 3 years ago. Yesterday I decided to get it out and try to fix it, it wasn't having any of it so we're calling the 'Computer Doctor' out to come and fix it as PC World did nothing. I'm in need of my own now as my sister is moving out and I need it more often as next year is when the hard work starts at college and i'm thinking about uni!
Anyway, this is just a blog post on recent life updates as I feel you don't know much about me.
I'm genuinely starting to feel happy with what I am doing, study wise. I got to a point where I just didn't know what I wanted to do and I wasn't feeling happy, I just wanted to leave college as I hated it! So I tried applying for many positions to get me out of college but still be learning, and basically it just didn't turn out well. I've been working so hard to try and get the best out of my education and it's definitely paying off, it shows throughout my grades, I'm getting A's on assignments.
Now this is definitely not something i'm going to brag about as I'm not the most academic, this is genuinely me expressing how i'm feeling. Finally feel able enough to go to uni, which I never thought i'd say!
The main reason for this is I've been so organised! I haven't been leaving things to the last minute like I usually do, I've been keeping a diary with things planned for the week or two ahead and it's really helped me to get my head straight! This has also helped me to kick anxious feelings, now i'm not self-diagnosing and saying I have anxiety as I think it's quite a serious matter. But everyone gets nervous, that's what i'm addressing myself. I've been feeling so negative towards things as I've explained above but organisation and basically just saying 'What's the worst that could happen?' and usually the answer is 'Nothing that can't be changed' and just going for it.
Now I don't want to rant on too long as this is just an update and chance to get a little more about me. But hopefully due to being finished college, well nearly I just have to go in on Friday to hand in my last assignment, I will be blogging a lot more. I've planned a few posts to get up in the very near future including, 'Small Hauls', recent beauty purchases and reviews and opinions of products that I've wanted to try for a while!
So stay tuned and they will be up very soon, reward yourself with brownie points if you've got this far!
Thank you,
Amy X
